Not a repeat of the past, I hope.

Tasia and exams don't mix.

2007-06-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONEEEE!
It's been AGES since I last touched this blog. =P Haha. Man, I've got LOADS of pics to update from the land of FUN - FINLAND! (: BUT, I'll leave that for the next post or so. That's cos I'm in the midst of my CTs now. ): Ya ya, here I am in front of the com instead of taking out my math to practice. CTs were horrible, and my brain needs a break badly. ):

I guess I didn't take the step from Secondary school life to JC too seriously. And I'm kinda regretting right now. OH WELL, time to move on and learn to improve. I NEED to get rid of the procrastinator in me! Man, I shudder at the thought of getting back my CT results. Never mind! On the bright side of things, I only have math paper left on Friday! (:

I can't wait till choir practice resumes. I miss Saints Chorale! ): Till then, STUDY HARD EVERYONE! (Well, at least for those that have to go through this gruelling torture. Haha!) It'll be over sooooooooooon. Hang in there! (: And good luck for the rest of the remaining papers!

I need retail therapy. ):

It's your patience, motivation and company that's keeping me going,
And words can't express my gratitude.
Thanks for always being there for me.
Many many many <3s. +)

Pangs of happyness.

2007-05-13T10:16:00.000+08:00

Oh man, this blog is so dead. Lol! And so many things have happened. :D

Concert and SYF are finally over! And I'm so very proud to be part of SAJC Chorale. :D Concert wasn't that good, but we got over it and performed our very bestestest for SYF. And we got SILVER! (: Yea yea, you may think.. Silver only what, so happy for what? But who cares what others think! =P Haha. It's just an award, where it only reflects 7 people's opinion of your choir judging on what.. 10 minutes on stage? We had fun on stage, and that's all that matters. I enjoyed the process - where we had worked hard, and played hard too. :D

A Gold (with honours) Choir does not equal to a Good Choir.
And I know that to me, Saints Chorale is a gold choir. (: Honestly, I am truly proud and honoured to be part of such a great group. :D

THE FINLAND TRIP is less than a month away!! YAYYY! There's be tonnnnnnnes of fun and CRAZINESS! Lol. And we have quite a few more performances lined up for choir too. :D

I have 3 tests next week! ): Yuck yuck yuck. Plus we have to work on our GPP! Nevermind, with perserverence and determination, everything will be fine. (: I seriously can't wait till this term is over. (Putting aside the fact that I need to catch up with SOOOOO much work during the hols.)

It's Mothers' Day today! (:
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY, dearest mum!
I love love love you loads. <3
Thanks for putting up with my nonsense all the time. :D

I'm so alkdjaodgjatlenga-ing HAPPY!
Sometimes I feel I'm the luckiest girl in the world. =)

"Always remember, life is not how many breaths you take. It's how many moments take your breath away."

-Hitch (Will Smith), Hitch.

The pursuit of happyness

2007-04-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."

-Helen Keller

This quote really got me thinking.
I'm gonna look the other way now.
Maybe,
Just maybe,
I'll be happier.
It's worth a shot. (:
I haven't been this contented for some time now. :D

Thanks for being there for me.
You just knew. =D

I need a time-out.

2007-04-22T10:13:00.000+08:00

JC life is totally not what I had in mind. The amount of work and the involvement in CCA is seriously draining me. Thank God for my great friends in school, or else I wouldn't be able to cope at all. (:

I love Saints Chorale!! =) It's such a vast difference from String Ensemble which I joined in sec 1 & 2 in TKGS. I actually look forward to practices, as compared to the days where I ponned String Ensemble once in 2 weeks. Lol. Our concert's in 13 days, and SYF in 16 days. Whoever thinks that Choir is a slack CCA is totally wrong man. It takes so much out of us. Yesterday's practice was so tiring, I was struggling to keep my eyes open after lunch. Lol.

These few weeks, my life has really just revolved around school and choir. Choir practices are now 4 times a week - including Tuesdays ending at about 830 and almost the whole day of Saturday (845 to 5 plus!) I'm seriously not complaining, cos I do enjoy choir. (: The people there are so fun. :D And we have gossip to entertain us.. =) HAHA!

It's time to eat, live & breathe choir.

Speaking of choir. (:
Saints Chorale's choir concert is coming up!

Viva Vox II
St Andrew's Cathedral
5th May 2007
8pm

Please come down and support us! (: (Or just laugh at me, it doesn't really matter.) Hahaha. Tickets are priced at $12. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COME! =) Get your tickets from me! :D

On the other hand, I really miss RG. I feel like I'm missing out in so much. ): Never mind, 2 more weeks.. And I should be more free. (: Can't wait to hang out with you guys again. You guys better be coming for the concert! =P

Weeling and Val, we must meet up one day! I need to pass you the tickets. (: Get all your friends to come ar! Haha. I'll be buying tickets from you guys too. (:

Ok, it's time to get back to my econs project. =(

If you had only just looked over your shoulder,
I was always there for you.
You realised that,
Didn't you?

I waited in the rain.
Alone & hurt.
You never really did care,
Did you?

Then I realised,
The sun was just waiting to shine.
I was foolish,
wasn't I?

You probably didn't need me
As much as the other.
And you,
You would be different from the rest.

Right?

"Life's a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get."
"You've got to put the past behind you before you can move on."

- Forrest Gump (Tom Hanks), Forrest Gump

How very true.

The joys of SAJC. :D

2007-04-06T10:59:00.000+08:00

Wow-woah-weeeeeee! (: I'm here to blog again and I'm in a happy happy mood. Hahaha.

Oh well, what can I say? I've been so busy with both school & church. But it's okay, I've just gotta learn how to manage my stress. =)

Choir camp was last week. And it was fun! (: It was great bonding with some of the J1s and seniors. Hopefully we'll all be more motivated to work harder for the upcoming concert & SYF. (Which is in just 1 month!!) Haha. Pics from the camp! (:

YES! We went to the guy's toilet! LOL. Hmm, we played waterbombs for the last part of the camp and it was SUPER fun!! (: Elroy hit me in the head!! Elroy, I still owe you one ok. =P Hahahaha.

Speaking of choir, I CAN'T SING! )): And I'm super sad sad sad. I've got an incredibly sexy voice now. Lol! I NEED to get well soon, I wanna sing! And there's auditions on the 17th of April! Never mind, more water, less oily food, and I'll be better. (:

I miss PAE 07S16. ): I miss PE lessons with Steffie, Sarah & Wendy. I miss Cherie & Carolyn's laughter. I miss Joshua's ego-ness. I miss Yanxiu's teasing.. I hope all of you are doing great. (:

Happy happy memories. (:
Thanks for the photos Steffie! :D

OH YES! My threadless t-shirts are here. YAY! (: Thanks once again, Averyl.
And I bought another gorgeous necklace online. :D I do deserve to pamper myself every once in a while ok, to make myself happy. =P

A constant battle, between the heart & mind.

2007-03-24T00:56:00.000+08:00

Well well, I've got a new class - 07S15! And so far they're also a great bunch of outgoing people. I think I'm really very blessed. (: I guess these 2 years will be FAR from boring!

The teachers are already stressing the importance of A levels, and how we are suppose to be consistent starting now. Oh man, I still haven't recovered from the Os! ): Sometimes the journey of school life seems never ending. But I'm sure after I step into the working world, I'd miss school life. Haha. Why is life so complicated? I myself don't understand why sometimes I can't enjoy things for the way they are sometimes now in this current period of my life.

I guess I won't blog much, since my choir exchange workshop is in like less than 8 hours time. Lol. I can't wait to see VALARIE LIOW! (: OUR BIRTHDAYS ARE COMING SOON! :D Maybe we can go out some time. Miss you so!

Be wary, my dear friend,
I wish nothing but the best for you.
But remember,
A heart's desire -
It often outweighs a mind's logic.
Trust me, I know.
Hurt, lies & betrayals,
You've been through that.
And I hope it won't be so,
Anymore.

And the sun continues to shine.

2007-03-15T20:35:00.000+08:00

It's good to be back in the SA choir. (: That's for sure. Had a workshop with Mr Valesco from the Philipines yesterday. He's an awesome conductor! He made us do simple vocalization that made us sound so much better. :D Hopefully it'll help us improve for the Choir Exchange at HCJC next saturday.

And.. I wore my SA uniform for the first time yesterday! Such a refreshing change, from 10 years of Pinafore - from Katong Convent to TKG. Haha. And I love the uniform! :D Gotta learn how to tie a tie though.. Hehe. Gotta alter my skirt asap, folding is SO uncomfortable.

Got my vintage heart necklacee! And it's sooo pretty. (: And my converse shoes at a sale too! Tasia is a happy happy girl. She'll be even happier if she cancels out more things on her wishlist. :D Haha!

Went to catch Happily Never After with Choo Min today. Hmm, what can I say? It's not too great a show, kinda cute though. But it's definately not worth paying for. I wanna go watch Music & Lyrics. )): But everyone has already seemed to have watched it.

Tasia is out of moolahs to buy things. ):
Please donate to the 'Cheer Tasia Up' fund.
Hahahaha!

LEANNE! Just a special note to you:
Cheer up k! I'm always always always here for you and I hope you know that. I'm only just a phone call or a bus ride away. (Although the bus takes AGES to come. Lol!) If you just need to rant or someone to listen to you, that's my job! :D Love ya babe. (:

At the end of the day,
When she gets what she wants,
Would she really want what she gets?

It's a choice she has to make,
And a chance she has to take.

I could seriously use some direction.

It's a happy, wonderful day!

2007-03-13T11:28:00.000+08:00

Well, seems like there was hope after all. (:
I'm happy.
But of course I'm still praying for my friends..
Remember, things always happen for a reason k?

I'm heading back to SA! :D I'm really very happy. And I'm suprised they even took me in considering my horrible choir audition. But oh well, I shall try my best to improve. (: I guess SA hasn't gotten enough of me yet . :D Lol.

Had to travel to SA, then to MJ, then back to SA again this morning. And finally went to buy my uniform from Teck Whye! Gotta go alter the skirt though..

Changed my blogskin. SO CUTE RIGHT! (: I especially like the Yellow Pill. Hahaha. Finally took the effort to bother changing my really outdated blogskin.

I realised, I can't play tennis for NUTS. Headed down to Matt's place on Sunday to play Tennis with him, Lea, Wes and Anton. And my conclusion is that, I should just stick to table tennis. (:

And there is seriously a lack of good photocopying shops in Singapore. ):

I shouldn't have taken it for granted.

2007-03-09T10:49:00.000+08:00

What a way to start a day.

I guess that's the end of it.
I'm happy for you. (:
But,
That sinking feeling..
It won't go away.
Shucks.

To sum it all up-
There's no hope.

I'll get over it,
I will.

Lord, please help me accept the fact that it's not meant to be.
And that You have greater plans.

The dust has only just begun to fall,
Crop circles in the carpet,
Sinking feeling..

Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before.
The takeover,
The sweeping insensitivity
Of this still life.

It's not over, it goes on.

2007-03-07T20:23:00.000+08:00

These past few days have just been such a shitty emotional roller coaster ride.
From extreme happiness to total disappointment.

I hate days like these. ):
I hate seeing my friends upset,
I hate leaving friends,
I hate leaving an environment I've grown totally used to,
I hate leaving great teachers.

Changes. How do you know what's the right change for you?
I don't know where to go from here. To stay or to go?

Special message to some of you guys:
Sandra: BRA!! I'M GONNA MISS YOU SOOO MUCH. It's truly God's blessing that I've managed to find such a true friend within a short period of time. I'll miss the conversations we have about guys, about school, about ANYTHING.. even your lame jokes! I've had such a great time with you.. I'm really gonna miss you so much. If I don't come back, we must still keep in touch OKAY!

Yanxiu: Xiuxiu, thanks for all the times you've brightened up my day. You have made me laugh COUNTLESS times. It's been a great joy knowing you! Thanks for all the encouraging messages & the fun times when we go out! You are one of the few people who have seen my really whacko side, am i not right? (: Haha. I hope everything works out for you in SA.. I'LL MISS YOU! ):

Joanna: Hey Joanna, I guess I haven't spoken to you since the last time I went to school. I hope you didn't forget me! =P Cos I for sure didn't forget you. Thanks for all the great times, and I knew you were one of the few people I could trust totally. All the best for your band dreams! BUT, please don't forget about your studies. (: And, don't worry.. I know you're not an ah lian. :D Haha! You & your lameness, I'll never forget you. (:

Cherie: CHERIEEEEEEEEEE! You know what will be missing from now on? Your sunshine appeal & bubbliness in class! And of course, your unforgettable laughter!! You're such a great friend whom I can always count on.. Thanks so much for being there. =) Haha.. Continue being such a happy girl ok? I'm gonna miss you so. =(

Sarah: Hey girl, thanks so much for your encouragement. :D You've been truly a pal in class, brightening my day. You never fail to make me laugh with your character. (: No matter where it is that you go, I wish you all the best and continue to be happy okay? Don't mind too much about what others say about the JC you're going to, I believe you're gonna excel wherever you go. I'm gonna miss you. ):

Steffie: STEFFIE! I guess breaks just won't be the same without you anymore, entertaining us with your stupid vids. (: Haha. But nevertheless, congrats for getting into your first choice. =) Enjoy yourself yea? And I'll miss you terribly, my singing partner. =(

Rong Ming: Choir pal! Thanks so much for being a true friend, especially the day I lost my wallet and you accompanied me to find it. =) Seriously, I really appreciate it. You & Chin yan can make me laugh all the time man. Haha.. It's been great knowing you and I wish you all the best! (:

07S16, you've truly been a great class. I really couldn't have asked for more.
I'm glad we managed to have a class outing at Fish & Co. on Monday. I hope it's not the final one!
Sandra, Yanxiu & Cherie: Thanks so much for the day out on Tues. I had a great great time with you guys.. Laughing till I almost cried. And Yanxiu for ponning school with me! Let's really really hope this time we'll be able to get the uniform together yea? (:

To my choir teachers and seniors, thanks so much for the encouragement and assurance. I really really can't express my gratitude. (: It's my privilege to have known you guys.

I guess regrets would always remain in our lives right? Life goes on, and I have to learn how to adapt. I hope for an ideal situation where I'll return, but if things don't work out.. I guess it's meant to be. =/

Lea, Rong Ming, Sarah, Suryanti & Joslyn, I hope your appeals all succeed. (: All the best!

On a happier note, Averyl helped me order Threadless t-shirts! THANKS AV. :D
And also thanks to Charles, Lea, Wesley & Chris for being there for me when I was sad & confused. (:
Sometimes it's during these cases where you appreciate all your true friends.
So, I guess there's a bright side to it after all. =)

If only it could be that simple.

2007-03-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

She just didn't feel the little tingles on her neck when she saw him,
She didn't feel her heart skip a beat every time she thought about him,
She didn't feel like closing her eyes & dreaming of a future together.

And, she knew for certainty that she wouldn't spend the following day wandering around in a romance-induced daze.

He was a nice guy,
The kind of guy who'd be perfect for someone else.

Sometimes,
It's just like that.

Could this be for real?

2007-03-04T00:36:00.000+08:00

I've been having a great time these past few days. Sometimes the company of your close friends is just so fulfilling. (:

Slept over at Lea's house after prayer meet yesterday. Wes, Lea and I all took turns to play & sing. Hmm, well.. at least for Wes, only to sing. =P Haha! But it was funny man.. a whole lot of going out of tune rubbish went on. Good fun! Hahaha. Helped Lea make her chocolate snowballs taste AND look a whole lot better by rolling them in icing sugar. It requires a lot of patience man.. We finished them only at 1am plus. But it was worthwhile! It's nice & addictive!

I realised Laura has the same online shopping fetish as me! YAYAYAY! We can intro shops to each other, right Laura? (: Haha. Online shopping is fun man, but it's a really expensive hobby. =/

Leanne went to dig her cupboard just to see what games that she had. And she found these 2 games called 'Uno Madness' & 'Uno Rummy'! We started playing Uno Madness first, and guess what.. the machine was spoilt!! So it was no fun at all. ): Switched to Uno Rummy, it's actually a mixture of both Uno and Jim Rummy (card game), but since both Lea & I don't know how to play JR, we kinda came up with our own version! Lol.. And it was fun! Played till 3am, pure UNO MADNESS! Only went to slept at 4am after watching and criticizing the Ellen show. Hahaha..

I went to Damian's house for the first time today! Haha. It took him 2 whole years to invite me to his house, some friend huh! Haha. Kidding, Dimmie! =P His brothers are sooooo cute! Dillian is already so big, I've seen him since he was a newborn & now he's already 2 years old. He's so adorable, actually.. coming to think of it, he looks like a Cabbage Doll! Haha. So cute. (: And Dan Dan, got so hyper! He was sooo noisy, but he's such likeable kid. What can I say, I guess I have a soft spot for adorable children. (:

Damian's room is SUPER messy! Horrible man.. Haha. Tried to play the golf toy set with Dan Dan but it was just not possible! Firstly, the clubs were made for small children, the plastic clubs were far far too short for me. And, they were so light cos they were made of plastic. Damian, Amy and Lea still laughed at me! ): Haha. Played Uno with the 3 of them as well. Haven't played that game in such a long time, I didn't even win once! But the funniest part was.. Dan Dan kept telling us what Lea's cards were without knowing that he was actually jeapordising Lea's chances of winning! Played Speed as well, and Damian is LOUSY at it! =P Haha.. Dan Dan actually sticked a sticker on my arm whilst we were eating lunch, and I forgot all about it. Almost left the house without removing it! Hahaha. It would have been so embarrassing cos it was a big WantWant sticker. Lol!

Damian, I wanna babysit your brothers again! Pillow fight with Dillian & Dan Dan! (With the secret motive of whacking your face, of course. =P Haha!)

Finally managed to practise the Responsorial Psalm for Family Mass with Kathy today. Let's hope all goes well next Friday and I'll be able to play fine. I really really hope so. =/ I'm so happy she managed to sing in the key of D minor. YAY! So Uncle Tony can sing a duet with her. It's gonna be goody good good!

After joining Lea's family for dinner, we came back to do the powerpoint slides for Family Mass. And Colin was online, so I disturbed him typing LikE DiShXx. SoO iRRItaTiNg HoRxXx? LOL! I really don't understand how those twits actually bother typing like that. It's such a strain on both the eyes & the fingers. Lol! (Don't know what's a twit? Check out this blog!) So anyway, Colin tried typing back in the same manner. He was actually doing his online chem test but he got distracted and said I caused him to submit a wrong answer! Wah, how can blame me.. LOL! The power of the twits!

Fall Out Boy's concert was held today. Heard it was damn good, but also really crowded. Anton said he had to queue for 3 hours and it was super squashy inside. Haha.. Matthew got grinded by someone. LOL!!! Funny stuff man. Bet they really enjoyed themselves. But nah, I'm not such a Fall Out Boy fan. I'd rather use the money and watch a musical. Heh heh. =)

Chris scored SUPER well for his As.
CONGRATS! ((:
I bet he can swim in all the scholarship forms offered to him. Haha.
It's true that consistent work really pays off. I'm motivated! (:

Okays, I'm off to bed now!
GoOoD NitExX eVeRbOdI!
Heh heh. =P

I think I could like you
I already do..
Feelings can grow
But they can go away too

First I have to know,
Are you thoughtful & kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?

Do you know how to touch a girl?

Who am I

2007-02-26T18:44:00.000+08:00

It's about a week more to the posting of schools results. I'm gonna miss 07S16, especially Sandra, Joanna and Yanxiu. Haha! They're real pals. =) I don't understand why they must separate us all again. ): Oh well.. Never mind, maybe I'll meet even more great people!

That empty feeling;
I hope I get over it.
I see things around me that I know should be stopped,
But I really have no idea where to start..
There's always that fear in me.
Fear of losing a friend,
Fear of being despised.
One day,
One day I'll muster up the courage.

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today & gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ovean
Vapour in the wind

Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours,
I am Yours.

Addicted to online shopping!

2007-02-17T12:47:00.000+08:00

CNY is here! Can't wait for reunion dinner tonight. :D

I guess yesterday didn't turn out as fun as it should have. ): I hate seeing Lea upset. I hope she cheers up soon! Anyway, I met up with Lea (once again) yesterday and Kim was with her too. That girl has an online jewellery shop! :D Hahha. Window-shopped with them in town, was too broke to buy anything cos I spent SO much money on Tues and on my online necklaces. Haha..

Collected my oriental necklace with a japanese tensha bead which has a blue rose on it. It's SOOO pretty! (: I think I shall wear it for CNY. I think this year I'm more concerned about my accessories than my clothes man. Lol! So we met up with Matt and Wes later at City Hall cos they were heading to my place for prayer meet. And then, I noticed the CUTEST THING! HAHAHA!

Red, white, red, white, red white! LOL! Isn't it SO coincidental! Actually Wes was wearing a red tie as well, but he took it off to fit in. -__- Haha. One of the women was actually smiling and kept whispering to her friend, I guess she noticed too! It was sooo funny. Hahaha. Patriots of Singapore! Oh my, I just realised they're the only 2 goondu males there! Wahaha. Matt is smiling in the pic! (VERY RARE! Lol.)

Everybody should watch this series called Heroes! It's like a mixture of X-men & Lost. I don't know howta explain.. Haha! But it's a MUST-WATCH! :D

HAPPY CNY EVERYBODY! (:
Hope everyone gets many many many many hong paos! :D

The aftermath

2007-02-16T01:27:00.000+08:00

Been hanging out with leanne almost every day this week man. She's been a true pal, listening to all sorts of nonsense and rants that come out of my mouth. Haha! Thanks babe! For truly being there for me. =)

O levels results are finally out and I can't deny that I'm happy. (: Yea, at first I wasn't satisfied but i think God was more than generous considering the effort I put in. Why live life unhappy and regretting? Haha. Anyway, I couldn't have survived my Os without the support and encouragement from my friends, especially:
Leanne, Amy, Wesley, Chris, Damian, Weeling & Valarie.
You guys have been great. I knew I could just whip out my phone anytime to disturb you guys whenever I was feeling down. Especially Valarie and Chris who were my motivation smsing buddies whenever I felt like giving up studying up altogether. As well as Weeling who was my studying partner :D Thanks ALL of you once again. I couldn't have done it without you.

Well, for the posting of schools.. I'm really leaving it to God. I'm neither here nor there, I'm really not sure what I want. I'll just see how it goes. =) Anyway, I already feel so blessed to have so many friends in SAJC. It'll be really hard if I had to leave them. I'm gonna miss TKGS so much. ): Sigh, i guess we all have to move on..

So faith expands it's beauty
Until at last it grows
Into life's lasting flower..
The heart's fair perfect rose.

Fragile and beautiful
As pure as it can be
No, it does not wither..
Because of the hope you give her.

I'm proud of my shitty cheena poem!

2007-01-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

Wendy: Peter, I should like to give you a kiss.
(Peter holds his hand out.)
Wendy: Don't you know what a kiss is?
Peter: I shall know when you give me one.

-Peter Pan

I think this quote is so cute. (:
Anyway, I have this impossible task of composing a chinese poem before school tmr. My mind is just not atuned to spilling chim chinese words after how many months of hibernation from chinese! Save me. ):
So far I've come up with a grand total of.. 3 lines! Haha. (I doubt they even make much sense)
And my chinese teacher is making us share our thoughts on the poem wrote tmr!! What thoughts?!
Oh well, I'm just hoping tmr zips past and I won't be too embarrassed. =(
I have a long long day tmr, ending with PE! )):
Ok, I think it's time I got back to my shitty poem. Lol.

I guess it's time to stop chasing rainbows.
Maybe it's not meant to be for me.
Time will tell.

A new chapter begins

2007-01-17T19:01:00.000+08:00

Oh my, it's been EONS since the last entry. Hehe.. Oh well, my blog always has the tendency to die off once in a while. I guess I've always preferred writting in my own person journal where I can truly record my thoughts and memories without having to worry if I have offended anyone or having to think whether I revealed too much. =/ Haha.

A new year has begun, and a new chapter of my life begins i guess. JC life is really different from secondary school. There's so many breaks in between lectures (at least for now) that my friends and I find that we have been crapping with each other too much. Lol.

Anyway, SAJC has been fun. (: I've met so many great people and they've become real pals. To think that Sandra copied econs notes for me cos I didn't go to school yesterday. I'm so touched! I'm really blessed. =) And I got into Choir in SAJC, and I'm sure I'll enjoy it there. And SAJC isn't too far from my house actually, it's just a 10min car ride and a 15min bus journey. I thought the bus ride would take about an hour. =/ Haha!

I miss sooo many people though! I miss Weeling, Valarie, Sarah.G, Chay Teng and Alison! I hope they're enjoying themselves too.. Hopefully we'll be able to catch up with each other soon again. (:

Lectures have already started and can you believe it, I actually DO my homework! I'm SOOO proud of myself. =P Hehe. My brain's a bit rusty though, haven't been putting it to much use during the hols. And there are tests coming up already! ): Pray that the teachers aren't gonna kill us. Sometimes I have no idea what the econs teacher is talking about, I hope the econs test is pass-able man..

Tricia lent me this new dancing game which I think is quite cool.
So.. cross your fingers and hope I don't get too addicted to this game till I neglect my schoolwork. Lol.

An issue of the heart

2006-11-29T02:35:00.000+08:00

I've been having great fun.
Shopping trips 2 days in a row..
Broke, but happy. :D

VJC's choir tea party was really great. I've never been made such a fool! (Though some of you may beg to differ. *rolls eyes*) Haha. They made me do things like scream at the top of my lungs, a catwalk, and answer ridiculous questions in a so-called 'interview'. But it was all a prank! Wahaha. They even caught it on tape! That wasn't it, they even made us do silly voice warm ups. And i REALLY mean silly. Making us do weird ballet movements while singing and holding our breaths to 32 counts. Haha! I actually thought they were actual, effective warm-ups! Lol.. I won't be fooled so easily again! The games were really fun too. :D It's the spirit of the VJ choir all-around, it just cheers everyone up. Talent AND spirit, no wonder they're the best JC choir.

"A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."

- Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy.

I was just watching some old episodes of Grey's Anatomy and what Meredith said just struck a chord with me. Stubborn people aren't we? Not wanting to listen and end up making mistakes.
Of course, I'm no different. Looking back, I realise how many times I end up hurting myself and others, because I failed to listen.
I guess a reason for this failure to listen is the fear of regretting. Well, at least that applies for me. I don't wanna end up regretting when I choose not to try out something. But in the process I failed to consider how much hurt would get involved.
However, at the end of the day, I still feel that listening to your heart, making your own decisions, and learning from your mistakes beats not trying at all.
That's why although people say I made a big mistake and should have listened to them,
I'm happy cos at least I took a chance and tried. (:

Taste of freedom once again

2006-11-23T10:45:00.000+08:00

The Os are over. (:

No more studying.
No more Red Bull.
No more Ginseng water. (Ugh!)
No more waking up at 4am to study.
No more sleepless nights.
No more 'Aren't you suppose to be studying?!'
No more feeling guilty about slacking.
No more social studies!
No more physics! (:
NO MORE MEP! :D

AND.. I'm invited to go to VJC choir's party tmr! It's gonna be fun! :D Haha.
I'll update more when I come back! Going taka to shop for art materials today.
I'm a really happy girl. X)

Just the last lap left

2006-11-03T09:57:00.000+08:00

Woah, it's been ages since I last blogged. Oh well, October has come and gone. Now the big Os are here.. Time really flies man. It's about 2 more weeks till my exams are over and I can't wait! =) There's SOOO many things to look forward to. But till then, I've got to keep myself motivated to study. (Not working well so far.) Studying is just such a drag sometimes, especially Social Studies! Thank Goodness there's no more Social Studies in JC.

I can't help but fear that my O level results would be worse than my prelims. =/ It's kinda haunting me. Haha. Oh well, I've got till February to worry about that. VJC called, they were interested in me auditioning for String Ensemble. I wasn't at home at that time and Auntie Rosie said I'll call them back. BUT.. I don't wanna join String Ensemble! Yes, I'd love to go VJC but what's the point in joining a CCA you won't enjoy. I'm not gonna make the same mistake again, I think. To call or not to call.. Decisions, decisions.

There's this new movie 'Step up' opening soon. I wanna watch it! Channing Tatum is just H-O-T! He's made it to my list. :D Hahaha. I miss watching movies. ): It's been ages since I stepped into the cinema.

Oh yes, I'm not going for graduation night. ): What's the point of going since most of my friends aren't going. =/ Oh well. Haha. My dad's been complaining that there's no point of going since there aren't gonna be any guys there, so it'll be a waste of time and money to dress up just to take photos. Lol. Kinda true, but it's just that.. it'll be the last TKGS gathering for us. =( NEVER MIND! I'm still gonna have fun on that day with the gang. We've decided to just tour around Singapore and pamper ourselves, not to mention look for hot guys to ogle at. (That's more for me actually. Haha.) :D And we're spending the night at a hotel. Lol. It's gonna be loads of fun!

BUT, I've got to get through these 2 weeks first. T_T
Thanks to all my friends who have been there for me. :D

When the mind wonders

2006-10-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

I've had my share of heartaches
I've felt the sting of pain
From standing out in the desert
Praying for a rain.
I've seen my lonely teardrops
Fall down my lonely face.
Oh, how I long to hear the
Thunder roll again.

And I want to be
Swept away in Thee
Only You know what I need.

So, open up the sky, rain down Your love.
I don't care if I never get enough.
I just wanna be caught in that flood.
So open up the sky.

I've had my disappointments
I've cried a time or two
These showers of love I long for,
They only come from You.
Now I wanna go deeper,
Fall in over my head.
So, send Your Holy downpour,
And let the healing begin.

And I can't wait
To be swept away.
Only You can stop the pain.

- Open up the sky by FFH

I just love this song. (:
Results aren't too good. But what can I do?
I'm just leaving things as it is. I don't wanna tire myself thinking unnecessarily.
Now's just not the time.

Contentment

2006-10-03T19:38:00.000+08:00

Time really just sweeps pass you without even knowing it. It's October already! 17 November is drawing nearer and nearer. :D

I've gotten back some of my results. And.. I can't help but say that I'm REALLY thankful and that He has really blest and guided me through everything - especially at this period of time when things can get really stressful and when times I feel like giving up. I mean, it's not like my results are fantastic or anything. But it's better than what I anticipated. (which was really kinda bad.)

And of course! How can I forget the support of my friends? Thanks guys for being there when I needed your encouragement and support. Haha. And also for all the well-wishes for my exam results. :D I know I can be really paranoid at times and Valarie knows that best. Lol. I know everything's not gonna turn out perfectly like in fairytales and we probably won't be able to go to the same JCs, but I really really am grateful to have you as my best buddies. :D Just a shout-out to some of you peeps:

Valarie
Oh man, where should I even begin? You've just been a great friend. (This is sincere! :D) I don't think you know how much of an impact you've had on me. I mean, from the daily sms-es of encouraging words during intense mugging sessions to letting me squeeze your arm when I panic just before we get our results to just being you, willing to help me out all the time - even in the most ridiculous situations. Lol. Although I enjoy teasing you about almost everything, most of them aren't true and you're truly one of the most talented and intelligent people I know. (: You're one of those few people that I can complain to about almost anything under the sun, and.. you're also one of those few people that can tolerate it! Haha! And maybe one day, we can have an SKS (Stupid Korean Show) marathon ok? Haha! And thanks for the little gift you gave me today. The note was REALLY sweet! And the endorphins from the chocolates helped. =)

Weeling
I'm really lucky to have a friend like you! Similar taste in almost everything. :D Haha! Plus, confiding in you hasn't been a problem at all. You probably know almost everything about me. Lol. You've made my Saturday mornings fruitful, or else I'd be lazing around or probably still sleeping. You're my fellow motivator and encourager as well, especially through the sms-es we send during studying. Like.. "Think of the shopping trip after the exams!" Haha. Oh well, our shopping trips won't end if we wind up going up to different JCs right? =/ Haha. If only we knew a guy like Shin! =( Hahaha. Stupid korean shows put silly romantic ideas in our head that aren't realistic man. Lol. But still, they're addictive! And, I guess we're both suckers for romantic series and movies. Haha.

Sarah aka Gan
You're a great buddy! :D Haha. Crazy smart girl! Marathon at collecting As at the prelims. Haha. I hope you get more As! ;) I know how badly you wanna go to VJC. And I have confidence you'll be able to. Don't worry too much. =) Haha. Over the past 2 years, I've gotten to know you so much more and you've been a great listener and comforter. Thanks!

Chay Teng
Although I've only gotten to known you last year, but you've grown to be one of my close friends. =) Haha. And you know what? You've introduced me into the world of football hotties! Haha. I never quite knew they existed. Lol. I wish you all the best for your results. :D And, hopefully you get to go to Barcelona again one day! AND.. if you do meet Torres, try and stuff him into a suitcase and bring him back for me. I want him to myself. HAHA! =P

Alison
ALISON.. What can I say? Lol. You've just been a joy to be around with. You're great at cheering people up and lightening the atmosphere. I'm really glad to have gotten to know you better. =) Haha. Hopefully next time when we go out you don't have your piano lessons that always clash! Thanks for the little gifts too, especially your home-made peppermint chocolates. Nice! Haha. Good luck for your results too. :D

There's so many more people to mention, but I've already spent way too much time blogging. I'll write it out another time. Haha. I think you guys know who you are. Anyway, each and every one of you has just been great and making this process of studying and preparing for Os much easier. Hugs. =)

The long-awaited trip

2006-09-24T19:38:00.000+08:00

And so, the journey began with Weeling. My shopping partner!! :D

Went to Bugis Street and Marina Square today. And we just went crazy! At first we tried saving money by going to bugis street and trying to look for nice clothes to buy. But in the end we wait and wait till 1 and majority of the shops still weren't open. -__- See lah, Weeling! Make me wake up so early! =P Haha. And by the way, I wasn't late today! Hmm, Weeling say must go buy 4D. I'm not that bad what! =( Hahaha.

So we decided not to wait any longer and head down to Marina Square. It's officially my favourite shopping mall now! :D

We shopped and shopped and shopped. Shop until my feet hurt! I walked into Marina Square quite wealthy and came out broke. Totally. Wonder why?

Yeah, that's why. Haha. But I spent my money with no regrets! I was admiring the stuff that I bought for so long when I came home. Lol. It was totally worth the wait during the prelims. =) The wonders of retail therapy. I love shopping! :D

Oh well, reality sinks and it's back to school tmr. I think we're getting back some papers. =( Never mind, I'm a happy girl for now. Nothing will spoil my mood. =D

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Sometimes it just feels like this

2006-09-24T00:46:00.000+08:00

Prelims are over! (:
Time to enjoy myself for a while before studying again..
So far I went to the cinema twice! I LOOOVE watching movies. Haha. After O levels I'm gonna have a movie marathon at one of the cinemas. Watching movie after movie. Hehe. :D
Shopping spree tmr!!

And to those having exams soon,
All the best! =)
Been there, felt like shit, done that. You'll survive. Haha.

What i miss the most;
The element of suprise

My ranting ground

2006-09-07T18:25:00.000+08:00

The september holidays are almost coming to an end already. And there's still so much studying to do! Oh well, I seriously think I'm turning into a geek. Before I sleep, I think of what to study the next day. When I wake up, I think of studying and worry I cannot finish what I planned for that day. And during the day, I STUDY! GOSHHHH! I have no life. ):

I miss watching movies in cinemas.
I miss slacking around the whole day.
I miss daydreaming the whole day.
I miss Orchard.
I miss 7-8 hours shopping trips with Weeling.
I miss my carefree lifestyle.
I miss spending time with my friends.
I miss sleepovers with Leanne and Amy.
I miss hangouts with the gang without having to worry about my studies.
I miss having long long dinners with good heart-to-heart talks.

I can't seem to remember what fun is anymore. ):
22nd September - End of prelims.
17th November - End of O levels.
That's when I start to have a life again..

Till then, it's time to hit the books again.
Study hard people!
And those who are having holidays or not having major examinations,
Don't rub it in!
I will seriously bite your head off. Hahaha.

And she rolls that dice of chance and leaves it to God.
To not bother, and to not care.

Fantabulous fun! (:

2006-08-10T01:11:00.000+08:00

National Day Celebrations on Tuesday was fun. Cos EVERYONE in class dressed in an ethnic costume! =) So happy. Haha. I can't believe that it's already the last national day i'll be spending in TKGS. Oh well.. All of us gotta move on. I'll never forget all the friends I made there. ;) Don't forget, class reunion in 2041! Hahaha.

The Kids Carnival was today. It was great fun. Played the catch-the-fish game with Wes and I managed to catch 2! I feel quite accomplished. It's not easy ok! Hehe. Some of the kids who participated in the Kids Idol were so adorable. Haha. I can't believe I missed Jerome's performance!! :(

Wes did a great job with the magic show he put up! =) And so did Amy, Damian, Michelle, Sarah, Francesca, Joshua and Grace for the skit! It was fun to watch you guys perform. :D

The fireworks were so pretty today. And the fighter jets were super noisy. Haha. I can see everything from my room, even the parachuters who were 'floating' in the air. Hehe. I've had great fun this past 2 days. (:

Happy 41st Birthday Singapore! =)

What I want

2006-08-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

It's National Day Celebrations tmr! :D And I'm gonna wear a Peranakan Kebaya. I'll take loads and loads of pics! Yay! Can't wait for school tmr. (If only I felt like this for school everyday. Haha.)

Sigh, things don't go the way you want sometimes right?
Things don't always seem as they are.
Call me a hopeless romantic,
I guess that's so.

A turn-around for the better

2006-08-06T09:08:00.000+08:00

You know what I really need?
I need a shopping spree and a really good movie! ):

Hahaha. That was so random. Anyway, prelims are in 20+ days. (As dear Weeling just oh-so-LOVES to remind me.) I have officially decided that I'm not gonna use Physics in my L1R5. I'm not even gonna consider it. I sit in Physics lesson and all I can think about is, 'What the hell am I learning this for? I don't get a thing.' And then I go about doing Amath or something. Hehe. I suspect Mr Yap really doesn't care anymore. That one time he caught me studying MEP and he actually said this: "Wah, learning foreign instruments ar. Difficult or not?" Then I just smiled and shrugged. Oh well, at least he doesn't bother me. Haha.

Hmm, let me just list out how my teachers pronounce my name:

Mrs Loy: Stacy-ia
Ms Lui: Tess-ar
Mr Peh: Tar-sia
Ms Chiam: DA-XIA
Mrs Liew: Tay-shier

Is my name that difficult to pronounce?! I have half a mind to assume that the faculty of TKGS has ganged up against me and do that on purpose. Haha! But I don't think so, it's been existent since kindergarten. And, not only teachers! Once, a classmate of mine for 3 years came up to me and called me "Tessa". 3 years, you know! Haha. Maybe everyone should just start calling me by a simple, easy-to-prounounce, common name now - something like, Lucy. Hahaha! No way, I'll just stick with my Tasia. And bear with the mispronounciations. Ugh.

It's been a great weekend! Topped off with a pleasant suprise visit yesterday. :D

You'll never know what life will bring

2006-08-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

The truth is such a funny thing.
I just don't know what to expect anymore..
The truth is so hard to hear at times.
And when it sinks in,
You stop and wonder..
What happened?

I guess there will always be suprises in life.
I know I can't please everyone..
But I never knew how insensitive one could get.
It's amazing how much effect it has.
I can't help but think,
Is it really my fault?

Sometimes I just feel that no one listens.

Is it really possible?

2006-07-31T20:44:00.000+08:00

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.
Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.
People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.
But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

What Color Green Are You?

I don't know how true is this. But I love green. :D

You Should Learn Portuguese

Muito legal! For you, learning a language is all about the lifestyle that comes with it.
And Brazilian beaches, hotties, parties, and soccer matches are just your style.

What Language Should You Learn?

Then I'd be able to speak to dear C.Ronaldo! Haha. But now I've got more of a thing for Fernando Torres. I'd rather learn Spanish! haha.

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Oh really? Haha.

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist.
People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you.
You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words.
Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

One of my favourite flowers! Apart from sunflowers and red & yellow roses. (:

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest:

You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.

At Your Lowest:

You feel in a slump and lack creativity.

In Love:

You tend to be many people's ideal partner.

How You're Attractive:

You make people feel confident and accepted.

Your Eternal Question:

"What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's Your Power Color?

Oh man, it's just one of those days - when you just feel unappreciated and insignificant.

I feel that something's missing in my life.

But yet, I don't know what.

Everything just seems so pointless..

At this point, it just seems that some choices I've made just turned out not-so-well..

And though they say it's possible to me

I don't see how it's probable.

I see the course that we're on,

Spinning farther from what I know.

I'll hold on.

Tell me you won't let go.

Mugging season

2006-07-27T22:23:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time since I last blogged. Oh well, I've been lazy. Haha. Anyway, it's only 5 more weeks to prelims! ): As much as I hate to admit it, I'm really not ready for it. Gotta start the studying marathon. Actually I already planned everything out, it's just that.. sometimes sticking to your timetable is really difficult. =/ I need to become a geek, NOW! Hahaha.

I went for the MEP concert on Saturday. It was sooo good! Worth every cent the 5 bucks I paid. (Cheap, huh?) Haha. The solo piano players were like.. Woah. From where I was sitting, I was just wondering how come their fingers didn't get tangled together. Lol! But yeah, I guess it takes a lot of practise. I really gotta stop being so lazy! MEP Practical is in a month's time, and I have yet to finish one of the pieces.

You know I was just wondering about how time passes by so fast. I still remember this time last year, Amy, Damian, Wesley, Josh and the gang were getting ready for their Os. And I never thought that my turn would come so soon.. =/ Haiya! Oh well, you can't gain back the time you lost.

Hmm, I think this is a rather pointless entry.
Maybe it was an attempt to motivate myself.
Who knows? Haha.

If only some probablities could be calculated..
Is this really what I want?

It's back to normal sleeping hours

2006-07-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

ITALY WON!!!!
'Nuff said. I'm so happy! :D

But.. I'm starting to feel a lil sorry for Zidane. I think he was really provoked to have given that stupid, rash headbutt in the chest to Materazzi. Here's the scene, I missed it on TV live! Dang it. Why did I fall asleep? Haha.

This video convinced me that Zidane was not in the wrong..

Materazzi is such a DIRTY player! He deserved the headbutt! Haha.
What a way to end off your career, Zidane. Oh well, you're filthy rich already anyway.

A change for the better

2006-07-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

Portugal's out of the game. ): They got 4th placing.. Oh well, I guess they did well. I'm still proud of them! :D Especially Cristiano Ronaldo and Deco. Haha. Though I think they could have played better. Petit scored an own goal! Ughhh. Never mind, finals tonight! I have decided to support Italy. France must not win -- Revenge for Spain, Brazil and Portugal! Hahaha. As though they care.

It's back to school tomorrow. =( It's not fair how time passes by extra quickly when it's the weekend. But yesterday was fun! It was fun watching some people go absolutely crazy over their crushes. Hahaha. I haven't seen that in quite a while. They are just so entertaining..

Pirates of the Caribbean on tv now! Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom are oh-just-so HOT! :D Haha. A lucky double dose for me. Lol! I think Johnny Depp is a great actor. But he traumatised me with his Edward Scissorhands character when I was really young. Haha. He makes a hot Jack Sparrow though. (:

Have you ever wondered how funny and unexpected some things turn out in the end?
Just thinking of that makes me smile. =)
Night everyone! Get some rest before the finals tonight! Hehe.

Portugal all the way!

2006-07-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

I'm cool okay! I watch football. :P Haha.
I didn't know watching football would be so exciting and fun!

Anyway, I'm so happy Portugal sent England home. :D Byebye to Beckham! Hello to my cute Cristiano Ronaldo. Hehe.

His footwork is fantastic! And he looks good doing it too. ;)

I haven't been using my long weekend fruitfully. And basically I guess overall it hasn't been a good weekend as well. =/ I hope things get better..

Thanks. (:

Time flies past

2006-06-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

School's started and the holidays have ended. =( Oh well, time passes when you're having fun I guess. I think I practically wasted my holidays away. =/ Haha. Now that school's started, I just can't wait for the prelims and Os to be over! A few more torturous months... I can do this!

But these few days have been great. =) I've had loads of fun and I even tried baking chicken and vegetable pot pie with Amy! It was a success. :D Haha! I can so be a chef already. =P Ask Wesley and Damian, our guinea pigs. Hahaha.

First day of school wasn't so bad. Was good to see the rest again. =) Hardly saw them during the hols except for the holiday lessons. Plus the day wasn't so tiring. If only everyday was like that.. Haha. I was talking to Fame about her hair, and this is how it went:

Me: Hey! You rebonded your hair?
Fame: Nope, I just put mayonnaise in my hair.
Me: WHAT?!?!

Nah, she didn't.
I actually believed her! But imagine.. mayonnaise in hair? GROSS!

Oh well, it's late now. And Grey's Anatomy is on!
Night all! :D

Your love is extravagant
Your friendship, mmmm.. so intimate
I feel like moving to the rhythm of Your grace
Your fragrance is intoxicating in our secret place
Your love is extravagant

Spread wide in the arms of Christ
Is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known
You considered me a friend,
Capture my heart again

Who's line is it anyway

2006-06-20T10:09:00.000+08:00

These few videos made me laugh till I CRIED! Haha.

I wonder if they're really funny or is it just me. Oh well.. Hehe.

Kite flying and.. that circle thing? Hehe

2006-06-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

Oh well, Confirmation 4 retreat has come and gone. It was kinda fun on the 2nd day, but I think I really didn't get much out of it. Thank goodness Wesley, Damian and Amy came to visit us! Or else I think I would have died of boredom.Too bad their visit was cut short. =/ Lol. We're kinda lucky that the retreat was at St Stephen's, near church. I guess I'm glad I'm finally getting confirmed. :D

Went to Pasir Ris Park today! We took about 2 hours plus to get to that huge playground! Haha! Goodus; we are. And instead of getting into the water, we flew kites! So fun. (: But super tiring. Hehe. But I wouldn't mind doing it again. Haha.

Doesn't it look fun? But it seriously isn't easy to get your kite up. Oh ya! At that playground, there was this circle thing that went round and round and round..

I have NO idea why they enjoyed that!! I was so freaked out. It feels like you're gonna fall and die. Haha. Like a mini rollercoaster. Scary. Not a thing for me.

You remind me of red and yellow roses, lilies and sunflowers. =)

Indeed, patience is a virtue

2006-06-06T18:36:00.000+08:00

God works in mysterious ways, I can vouch for that. I was really really having such a bad day and I was starting to rant on God. I guess I cooled off after a really long long walk home from piano. And then on the way, I received an sms I've waited for so long but never really expected. It brought a smile and changed my mood totally. And I'm sure God was sending a message to me. Patience was all it took..

I think the rain has this soothing effect on some people. It worked for me, that I know! Haha. (: I just love the smell of rain! And the sound of pitter-patter when it falls on your umbrella..

I just watched Ice Princess again! Oh man, that movie never fails to touch me. I want the Ice Princess and High School Musical Soundtrack! ): I guess I have to wait. Lol.

When there was me and you - Vanessa Anne Hudgens
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

I'm lovin' this song. :)

A male mind

2006-06-04T13:16:00.000+08:00

Lol! I wonder how that boy felt.
Oh well, serves him right for being such a ogler. :P

I was watching The Simple Life last night and I got super irritated by Paris Hilton.
In what way is she hot?! She's just like a life-size Barbie. Superficial.
I have absolutely no idea how guys find her hot.
The wonders of how the male mind works. Haha.

I'm a happy happy girl. (:

2006-06-01T14:24:00.000+08:00

Shopping List

1. ~~Confirmation outfit~~
2. Pencil Case
3. ~~Belt~~
4. ~~Earrings~~
5. Water Bottle
6. ~~Flip flops~~
7. ~~Heels~~
8. ~~Blouse~~
9. T-shirt
10. ~~Leanne's present~~
11. ~~Rings~~
12. Shorts

That explains my good mood. :D Haha. Thanks Weeling for the good day of fun and exercise! [6 hours of shopping = 1 hour of jogging!]

I'm a broke happy girl.
And I love my new things. =)

Ruler of my heart,
Robber of my soul.
Where can you be?
I wait patiently..

The happenings

2006-05-30T11:07:00.000+08:00

Woah, it's been quite some time since I last blogged. Haha. A LOT has happened.

Firstly, the American and Filipino missionaries came down to Singapore and worked their magic. ;) They're really amazing people and I'm so very very happy I got to meet them. :D The recollection and retreat they planned was super great and let's just say that I never felt God's presence so close for a long time. I guess my relationship with God had been in a dormant period before they came..

Photo taken from Joshua's blog

Rachel, Janalyn, Bridget, Jules, Eric, Ben, Josh and Johndy:
Thank you so much for touching my life. =) And I really had fun with you guys. It's really amazing how God works through people. :D

And YES! Chinese 'O' level Paper 1 and 2 are finally over. I'm not expecting much I guess. But I'm just glad that it's over and done with. Now on to the nightmare of Chinese oral in July. Oh man, I hope the examiner won't laugh at me too much. ):

I finally went to watch Xmen 3 yesterday! It was gooooood. :D Haha. Maybe the hardcore xmen fans might disagree with me but it was good enough for me. I shan't spoil it for those of ya'll who haven't watched it but I'm glad I had some mental preparation on what was gonna happen before I saw the movie. Stay on till AFTER the credits! There's a short clip. Haha. It seriously messes with your head. Another show just like Chronicles of Narnia. Haha. And my favourite characters in the movie are..

Angel and Shadowcat!

Well, I guess I really like Angel cos of his hot hot body. But I think he's kinda cute as well. He looks absolutely dashing when he flies. :D And his wings are B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L! And Shadowcat's been my favourite character ever since I got hooked unto watching X-men: Evolution (The cartoon version). She can phase through objects! How cool is that! Haha.

Coming to think of it, they look kinda cute together eh? But nah, that doesn't happen. If only! Haha.

Oh ya, I went to the St Pats drama performance last night cos there were a few free tickets. Well, we got in reaaaally late. I think 20 mins after the performance started? Haha. So I really didn't get what the drama was about. Oh well.. Lucky those tickets were free. Hehe. :P

I was just wondering..
Which song came first?
The Alphabet Song or Twinkle Twinkle Little Star?

My new schnauzer

2006-05-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

Presenting to you Coke!
The cutest, gentlest and sweeeetest puppy. :D
(He's quite horny though. Haha.)

Oh man, I still do miss Oreo. ):

The wonders of retail therapy and the sun

2006-05-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

I have a really really NICE new wallet! Thanks Weeling! (:
(She specifically asked for acknowledgement on this blog. :P Heh heh.)

Anyways, i've been going shopping with Weeling for about 3 days? Haha! And I'm starting to get broke already. But I got so many nice new things! :D I'm so happy. Hehe. We went to Parkway and Plaza Singapura on Thursday, Parkway on Saturday and Marina Square on Sunday! She's officially my shopping partner! Thanks again for the wallet. =) It's not with me now though, left it at Wesley's house. Oops. Haha. Sorry! Happy now, Weeling? Mentioned you so many many times. =P

Then I went to East Coast Park yesterday. =) Managed to cycle there safely though my legs were so black from the oil of the bike. Haha. Had lunch with Janice, Damian, Wesley and Sarah at Lagoon and then we played with sand! (: Hmm, I really wonder what's so intriguing about digging holes in the sand. Haha! Damian, Wesley and Janice dug a really deep hole each and succeeded in connecting them together! I have no idea why, but it was pretty exciting and fun. Hehe. And I got a tan too. :D

Haven't gotten any papers back yet. Therefore, I'm still in a happy happy mood! =) Hehe. I'm going to watch a movie with Anton tmr! Finally! YAY! (: I haven't stepped into the cinema since Nanny McPhee.

Is it me or does it already feel like the holidays? Hehe. =P

It's over!

2006-04-28T19:01:00.000+08:00

Prayer meet's gonna start in an hour and I'm still stuck at home. It's raining SO heavily! Nothing can make me go out there, the lightning is just scary. Hopefully my dad's back in Singapore already. =/

Anyway..
MY MID-YEARS ARE OVER! ((:
I never felt more free! Hehe. Went shopping right after the MEP Harmony paper. (which Weeling and I left 15 minutes earlier. Heh heh. Couldn't wait anymore.)

But I found out today that most of our papers are gonna be returned by next week! Oh man, I won't have much time to enjoy myself. =( Oh ya, the inspirational talk by Dr WilliamTan was really good! He's physically disabled but he's so accomplished! He's a doctor, has a professor degree AND he's participated in 10 marathons in 7 continents in 70 days! Goodness. I feel so.. unaccomplished. Hmm, so how would one know that he/she has accomplished her fullest potential?

Finally changed our seating arrangements. I'm quite happy with my seat at the back. =) Haha. But I really doubt it'll help me pay attention in class. Especially physics. Talking bout physics, I can't wait to drop it in JC! I REALLY CANNOT TAKE IT! It's such a boring boring boring boring boring subject. My interest in that subject has slowly been dropping until it has reached the minimal level. Ugh, but I'll still try and do my best for Os, of course. =)

I wanna go watch a movie! I've yet to watch Take the Lead and Aquamarine. ): And Failure to Launch too! I'm so deprived of movies. And guess what? Everyone else is having mid-years now and mugging hard. I guess there's a down-side to having your mid-years ending too early. But who cares? I'm finally free. ((: But as what my mom says, this is not the end yet. Haha. Sometimes I wonder how happy I'll really be when my Os are finally over. Hehe. (:

Yay! My dad's back in Singapore. And that means I won't have to take a bus! :D
Okay, gotta pick some DVDs to watch at Sarah's hse and I'm off!
Bye all! And happy mugging for those who still have mid-years! =P

EASTER

2006-04-17T18:09:00.000+08:00

In church.

In my house.

Damian the DING-DONG!!

Jellybeans! (:

For the Lord is my Tower! :D

2006-04-17T17:46:00.000+08:00

I know I'm a day late, but who cares?

HAPPY EASTER! (:

Mass was great! Haha. I really enjoyed it. The music was fantastic and Fr. Greg did a good job. The children were sooooo cute!! Hehe. Overall, everything went great and mostly everyone was in a happy happy mood. :D

After mass, some of them came over to my place for dinner. And we got drenched along the way. Sorry guys! I hope none of you fell sick. I just realised something: "The Mummy" reveals the sadistic side of many many people. Lol.

Oh yes! I'm finally SIXTEEN! Haha. Thanks for all the presents and wishes everyone! You guys made my day. =)

I just love easter. Don't you? (:

How many times
Have I broken Your heart,
But still You forgive
If only I ask.
How many times
Have You heard my pray,
Draw near to me..

Smiles =)

2006-04-03T20:11:00.000+08:00

Good ol' days

2006-03-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

Guess what? I can feel my muscles again! (:

Oh man, it's sports day tomorrow. My last one in TKGS. Coming to think of it, I've really grown attached to this school. I remember my first few days of school, being very self-conscious in that green uniform when I took the bus. Haha! Coming to think of it, it's so stupid. I mean, I never felt this attached to Katong Convent Primary. I don't wanna leave TKGS! :( 4 years have just zipped passed, and I'm already gonna graduate! So fast! I feel so old already. Haha.

Never mind, I shall scream my lungs out and support 4E1 tmr! Hehe. I'm really looking forward to it. Valarie's FINALLY deciding not to pon sports day and it's gonna be the first sports day she's attending in 10 years! That horrible girl.

Gotta be back at school for the mental resilience workshop after sports day. But I don't mind! You know what we learned? We learnt how to kick-ass man! Learnt a bit of martial arts, I can fight anybody now! =P That speaker made it seem so easy to defend and attack yourself from a strong and tall man. Oh well, if only those moves could be used in the MRT train without hurting everyone else. I absolutely HATE to taking the train when it is super crowded! Haha. Lol. Also found out I have hardly any emotion regulation. =/

It's also Damian's birthday tomorrow!
Happy birthday Damian!
Thanks for being such a great friend. :D
Hmmm, you're also lucky to have a friend like me. =P Haha.

Mount Kinabalu

2006-03-20T14:53:00.000+08:00

From the summit.

On the way down.

I climbed this steep slope in the dark! I can do anything now. =P Haha.

Holidays? I think not

2006-03-11T10:50:00.000+08:00

The week is finally over! But with a price of course -- a long list of homework to be done by the end of the hols. =(

I feel so accomplished. =D I managed to cycle on the main road yesterday! Without getting injured! Haha. Damian asked me to do him a favour, to cycle back one of the bikes that he borrowed from Amy. Actually I have no idea what caused Damian to ask me in his right mind, I'm probably one of the worse cyclist he's ever met. Lol.

After passing the guitar to one of his friends in church and leaving the bike in Amy's house, Damian and I headed to Wesley's place, where prayers were held at. Up till this day, I have absolutely no idea how to get about in that Siglap area. It is just too confusing! I think I still won't be able to find my way from Amy's house to Leanne's house. Haha.

Prayers this week was on sacrifice, planned by Wesley. Sometimes I think that we just take this period of Lent for granted. Me included. I mean, sometimes I make small sacrifices like abstaining from meat, fasting, not watching too much TV etc. But I do it for the sake of doing it, and never thought much about it. I guess that needs to be changed.

Today is the first Saturday in weeks that I managed to sleep in. No training today! Haha. Family mass tonight! And maybe a movie after that. :D

It's a happy happy day! (:

That bittersweet emotion

2006-03-09T20:21:00.000+08:00

Got back my progress report today. What a way to ruin the day. Sigh. =(
And Ms Lui expects my LIR5 for mid-years to be half of what I got this term.
I hope I can meet her expectation..

I feel so stupid man.

Oh well, there's no use feeling so down. The only thing I can do is work harder for mid-years! (: I guess that means sacrificing some time I spend in RG activities. I'll see how it goes and whether I can cope. =/ Plus I'll be going to Mt. Kinabalu from Tuesday to Friday. There goes my holidays. Shucks. I really hope I can manage.

On a lighter note, it's finally Friday tomorrow!
An end to a very long week.

Where were you when I needed you?
Words, they were not needed.
You remain so distant;
Do you even care?
This empty feeling remains.

Ice Princess

2006-03-06T20:40:00.000+08:00

The weekend just practically zoomed past. It's not fair! Time passes by so much faster when you're having fun. =(

Finally managed to watch this show and it was so nice! (: The final performance was super duper good! I think I re-watched that part about 4 times.

They make ice skating look so easy. Which is not true, at all. Haha. I don't understand how they do all that fancy spinning stuff on ice when it's hard to even balance on that slippery surface. Lol.

Michelle Trachtenberg was the lead actress in the movie. She's really pretty right? Haha. She kinda reminds me of Anne Hathaway of the Princess Diaries. Michelle Trachtenberg played Casey in Ice Princess, who is a physics nerd and is SUPER smart. And along the way, she discovers her natural talent to ice-skate. Haha. I wonder how often you actually meet almost perfect people like that.

But then again, it's only a show. Haha.
Sigh, it's a shame that the guy in this show wasn't that cute. BUT, he was such a sweet guy. :D

Awwww...

Eye candies

2006-03-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

Ace Young!
Isn't he so good-looking? One of the few guys that can pull off long hair..
He's not a bad singer too! (: Haha.

BUT..
My favourite 3 are still :

1) Jeremy Sumpter. Of course he is number one. (: But he hasn't been acting in any movies I know recently. =( Oh well, that doesn't make him any less cuter. Haha. He plays golf! Cool. :D

2) Rupert Grint. Cute! (: Haha. He no longer has his shaggy hair look, but he still looks good. Hehe. I heard he's acting in another movie called Driving Lessons or something. And apparently he is gonna kiss his co-star! *cries*

3) Adam Brody. Gorgeous hunk that plays the guitar. 'Nuff said.

It's been a boring day. Spiced it up with these guys! (:
Stare all you want. Haha.

What characteristics do you think I possess?

Night all!

Little Angels in Disguise

2006-03-01T22:09:00.000+08:00

I'm kinda suprised many people didn't know it was Ash Wednesday today. Even Catholics. Haha. Anyway, I went for the 6pm mass with Amy and Damian today. Saw cute Dan Dan again. Sometimes it's hard to believe Amy and Damian that he can be such a rascal. He's so adorable and pinchable. Hehe.

Hmm, talking about cute kids, Amy and I were talking in Elite Park and eating chips, and we saw this super-duper adorable little girl there as well. She was playing with her father. Haha. He was so sweet and patient, and I could see that he really enjoyed spending time with his daughter. It was really nice watching them spend time together. (:

I'm watching A Light Affair on tv now. It's amazing how much one can degrade herself. If I were a guy I would definately be turned off man! *hair stands* Haha. No wonder it's not suitable for kids. Yay! America's next top model now! =)

Ok, have a good day everyone! :D

What do you want?
I don't want to play your games anymore.
Make up your mind,
I can't wait forever.

Collected thoughts

2006-02-28T16:19:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Diary-x is gone forever. =(
Almost 2 years worth of entries and those beautiful templates Weeling made for me!
AHHH!
Oh well, I guess it's always ok to start afresh. (:

My grades are deteriorating very badly. I haven't reached one single aim I set. Am I aiming too high? I didn't even get an A1 for bio or chem. I don't even have a single digit for this term's L1R5. Like that how to go VJC?

I just remembered something. Sometime last week, we read a comprehension in our chinese workbook about how we shouldn't be practising jealousy in a friendship. (The passage was implying that friendship was somewhat like a tree and we should cut of the jealousy branch.) Anyway, that day during recess, Valarie just blurted out,

"I have something to confess. You know we read the passage just now right? It made me feel so guilty. Sometimes I feel so jealous when you guys get such good grades."

Seriously, I really don't know what the hell she was talking about. She produces more A1s than me and topped the class for history/ss! That girl is full of nonsense, her only problem is that she always feels so inferior. (Either that or it's just that she wants to hear me praising her. =P Kidding!)

That's beside the point, I was just wondering.. Isn't it kinda normal to be envious of your friends sometimes? I know it's wrong to do that. But who can tell me that you have never been jealous of one of your friends before? I mean, there will always people who would be more intelligent, prettier, funnier, more popular etc. I wonder if there's any way you can eliminate jealousy in a friendship. I believe that jealousy can only be minimised, not eliminated. Don't you think so? I was just thinking about it a while ago. Daydreaming while doing my homework. Haha.

I went shopping with Weeling on Sunday! Supposed to have gotten my schoolbag but I ended up spending all my money on earrings, nail polish and a top. The weird thing is that while I'm shopping, I don't feel guilty buying so much stuff. It's only when I finish shopping, then I think about what I bought, and then I feel the pain and feel guilty about spending so much money. It's amazing what a long time it takes to save but when you spend, you just need an instant. Haha.

Ok, it's back to homework. I thought the school would give us a break with no more CAs. How very wrong I was. =(